I find myself waking in the night gasping for breath having dreamed of Jesse and I together at last, running away with bags of illegally obtained cash. His blue eyes twinkling with passion for me, his body hard and ready, shacked up in some motel room with the law and the cartels after us. He is real, not just a character played by Aaron Paul, the Aaron Paul with a gorgeous long legged blonde girlfriend who might just find some ricin in her salad one day. The Aaron Paul who tries so hard not to revert to his true identity, Jesse Pinkman, The Pinkman, Le Pinkman, Pleasureman Pinkman, give up on the Pretence Pinkman and come and get me. Bitch.